I went to a party last weekend, boys and girls, black and white. It was fun. I spent a lot of time with one black boy and we made out. The problem was that it felt wrong. He wanted to have sex but I was not up for it. I'm not in a relationship so I wasn't cheating but it felt a bit wrong anyway. It's hard to explain. I wonder if it's going to feel like that every time now.

I think I will spend the weekend with the old black man again. I'm looking forward to it. But I'll be ovulating so time for morning-after pil again.