Before my mother ed away from cancer i did things that i feel where wrong and i do feel bad about it but at the time seemed like the right thing to do ''It was hard seeing my mom get worst over time and for both me and my step dad Andy we found comfort in each other ''it seemed like the worst my mom got the closer me and my step dad became ''there came a time when just snuggling wasent enough and before long we where touching each other in my bed as mom slept in the next room ''the more drugs she needed to keep the pain away made her sleep most of the day leaving me and dad to comfort each other .                                                   At the time it just seemed like the right thing to do it was hard on my step dad seeing mom suffer like that and if sucking his cock helped him to forget just for a little while then i was more than happy to get on my knees for him.

When i think about it now i feel bad that as my mom was laying there in her bed on so many drugs to keep her comfortable and she was sleeping i was with my step dad someware in the house exploring his body as we both found comfort in each other ''I sucked his cock like it was a baby soother ''using it to forget about my sick mother and when his cock wasent in my mouth i was on my back enjoying his hot tongue on my pussy and ass .At the time i was still a virgin so it was all about his tongue and thick fingers .We put a monitor in moms room so we knew if she woke up and needed something that way we could snuggle in my room or the spare room and not worry about mom .I know it sounds like we where thinking about ourselves more than mom and when i think about it now maybe we where ''but he felt so good his hands all over my body and the way his cock felt in my mouth was more than i could take i needed him in so many ways ..

Things went crazy between me and dad when mom was at the hospital for her last few weeks before she ed away ''having the house to ourselves made things between us even more crazy .having the freedom to be together with no barriers to stop or controle us made it easy to be naughty ''My step dad had no controle over himself and i couldent keep my clothes on so i gave up and just walked around the house naked and he did the same there was no point in wearing clothes my dad just took them off as fast as i put them on .Dinner was something fast and simple it wasent easy to cook when your naked and have someone touching you all over i cant tell you how many dinners where burnt because we where to buisy playing together and forgot about it .

I wouldent blame you for hatting me for the way i acted when my mother was sick i know it was wrong now but at the time i thought it was just about forgetting for a while just two people comforting themselves ''When i had my step dads cock in my mouth i was abel to forget what was hapening with my mom it was just me and my step dad and having fun .

I could lay there on his chest just watching my hand going slowly along his hard cock feeling his soft skin in my hand his heart beet in my ear and my hand we layed there like that for hours just the two of us in my bed .There where many nights when i would see him blow his load then fall assleep on his chest with his cock still in my hand coverd with cum ; It was confusing at times after seeing my mom in the hospital the drive home was strange because i felt two different ways one i was sad seeing my mom so sick and i was also excited because i knew when we got home i was going to be with my dad and be alone to play in my bed .

Maybe i wont go to heaven now after doing the things i did and keep doing now ''I cant take back the time or what i did as my mom ed away all i can do is carry on and seek comfort in him and everything he has to offer me ...